Sunday, 28 June 2009
With or Without You 
today i love my dress (i am having this sudden obsession over dresses the last time i wore a pair of jeans was almost a month ago to think i used to live in them haha) my hair my eyebrows my nails my skin (i think it is finally showing signs of recovering i love Aesop there is just so much goodness within a jar even thou it is taking seemingly forever to fully recover i'm still optimistic glowy happy babysoft skin you'll be mine one day) my heels (even thou my feet hurt like mad now after walking an afternoon all over town searching for paper for The List and i've a blister now ouch) my phone (i'm currently obsessed over mahjong i spend most of my time on it as well as a number of french movies i am now an Audrey Tautou fan haha) my family my friends everything and everyone! i've been so happy lately my world is filled with glitter and shimmer i think i could be the first in history to die of happiness haha!
last weekend i was at the Da Vinci exhibition at the Science Centre and it was really good i am currently obsessed over the Mona Lisa i actually spent hours just standing and admiring her she is just so beautiful in a way i can't describe i could spend all day just standing there and looking at her! did you know there is a splotch near her left eye and another on her chin and people thought for the longest time that she must have been sick and had cholesterol but it was later found that it was due to the oil or paint or varnish or whatever it is called so she actually is perfectly healthy! the painting isn't completed though he did not finish her right index finger and it was only later did he change his mind about the positioning of the index and third finger of her left hand and she doesn't have any facial hair no eyebrows nor eyelashes and the background of the painting has 3 layers and the right column has already been smudged and no matter where you are her eyes seem to be looking at something behind you thou i personally felt she seemed to be looking straight at me haha i could go on and on i haven't even started on The Last Supper and The Vitruvian Man haha! and as if my longing for Paris isn't strong enough now i want to go to Paris even more i want to go to the Lourve and see the real Mona Lisa because of her i am now very determined to finally start my job search because job equals money equals Paris equals Mona Lisa at the Lourve and of course my Eiffel Tower! :)
♥ princessj*<311:59 pm
Thursday, 18 June 2009
Because it is a happy day 
you know whenever people ask if mr O and i still talk i'd always say we no longer talk but actually we still do communicate every few days just that it isn't anything much and just doesn't seem to mean anything worth mentioning anyway today we were talking and i was saying how i remember having lots of things to tell him but i just couldn't remember what they were so he said to next time jot it all down which i think is quite a good idea am thinking of making a list of all the things i want to tell him and somehow or other stick it some way or other on mr T (nickname for his car like how his house is called mr house named after my mr snowman ok stop laughing already) for his birthday (though i'm not too sure if the date he told me is really his birthday because we were always lying about ridiculous stuff and exposing one another like he lied that he was born in 1984 and i lied that i was born in 1981 haha) plus in the past i used to always threaten to scratch his car whenever he said things to irritate me yes i've no creative juice in me at all i'm always using the same threat haha then he would ask me to scratch tic tac toe on his car so he can play it whenever he's bored haha so i owe him lots of tic tac toes on his car haha! should i make him that list? should i or should i not? i've even come up with the first item on the list that i want to tell him and that is today someone followed me home all the way to my doorstep it was damn scary!
i feel just so happy today i don't know if it is because i had my dose of mr O or if it is because i went out or if it is because i had good food and could eat till i want to explode i think it is all of the above haha! after talking to my love my life and my organs i took a train all the way to meet my waste matter for dinner we had steamboat buffet and the food was really good i had one whole plate of pork liver all by myself though now thinking back it was really disgusting i mean one whole plate! then we had cheap three for five dollars durian by the roadside very very nice i felt so full and so happy haha! we should do it again and again and again even though the waste matter actually said this to me "do you put makeup? how come after you put makeup you still look like that?" i'm going to still remember this ten years later okay! and now my whole bag has ah poo neh neh smell and my pee has a funny smell but at least i've stopped burping after the waste matter got off the train leaving me sitting in front of a woman who didn't zip her pants haha! if only everyday could be like today i'd be the happiest in this whole world if i weren't already so :)
♥ princessj*<311:48 pm
Monday, 15 June 2009
A different kind of Love 
less than two weeks ago it was finally the end of the exam marathon it was one of the most horrible times of my life like honestly how can exams be stretched over a span of four weeks its cruelty really i was so stressed my skin had this massive breakout and till now it still hasn't completely healed and my hair was dropping like nobodys business and i truly felt like i was on the verge of dying and each morning when i wake up i feel so amazed that i actually am still alive haha i'm such a drama queen sometimes but i'm happy to finally be able to wave those days goodbye! the papers this year were really really tough though i'm not too sure i'd pass all of them i don't even know if i'd be able to graduate this year you know! but i don't want to think about it after all there's nothing i can do.
these days i've been leading the lazy life and it feels great! i'd wake up and then go online to work a little on the tuition website i hope we can launch it soon and visit my favourite shopping website and surf a little on facebook and chat a little with friends and stalk my long list of blogs and sometimes i'd read old emails and make myself miserable yet happy its a weird bittersweet feeling i've been playing the sims 3 i've always loved the sims it is the only game that i have loved over the years perhaps because only in it can i ever fulfill the perfect life i've always dreamt about (more about that later) i've also been playing many random games that i've downloaded into my phone i've many books to read as well now i'm on 'to kill a mockingbird' and once in awhile i'd go back to the office to have lunch with my colleagues and a few days a week i meet up with my girlfriends even though we have nowhere to go nothing to do and sometimes i'd do something a little different like baking cookies and taking many many pictures leave me alone for hours and i have no problem entertaining myself i'd keep myself so busy i no longer know what it feels like to be bored haha that basically sums up my days this one plus week and i'm happy like this.
ever since i was a little girl i've always envisioned my perfect life with me being really intelligent and beautiful and i'd have many many pretty clothes and bags and shoes my hair and skin would be glowy and baby soft my hair long i used to think that when i turned seventeen or eighteen somehow i would have a boyfriend who would be tall dark and handsome and with lots of money who would bring me to beautiful places and make me the happiest woman on earth and when i turn twentysix he would do a really romantic proposal and we'd get married and live happily ever after haha i was young and dumb then i always thought i'd meet my perfect man and he would be all that i ever wanted all i ever dreamt of and we'd spend forever and a day happy together for the rest of our lives. but we all know that that only happens in fairy-tales don't we? still a little part of me does continue to subscribe to that silly ridiculous belief of dreams come true now i'm happy just being so much in love with the Hervé Léger bandage dress~
♥ princessj*<35:03 pm