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Monday, 15 June 2009

A different kind of Love

less than two weeks ago it was finally the end of the exam marathon it was one of the most horrible times of my life like honestly how can exams be stretched over a span of four weeks its cruelty really i was so stressed my skin had this massive breakout and till now it still hasn't completely healed and my hair was dropping like nobodys business and i truly felt like i was on the verge of dying and each morning when i wake up i feel so amazed that i actually am still alive haha i'm such a drama queen sometimes but i'm happy to finally be able to wave those days goodbye! the papers this year were really really tough though i'm not too sure i'd pass all of them i don't even know if i'd be able to graduate this year you know! but i don't want to think about it after all there's nothing i can do.

these days i've been leading the lazy life and it feels great! i'd wake up and then go online to work a little on the tuition website i hope we can launch it soon and visit my favourite shopping website and surf a little on facebook and chat a little with friends and stalk my long list of blogs and sometimes i'd read old emails and make myself miserable yet happy its a weird bittersweet feeling i've been playing the sims 3 i've always loved the sims it is the only game that i have loved over the years perhaps because only in it can i ever fulfill the perfect life i've always dreamt about (more about that later) i've also been playing many random games that i've downloaded into my phone i've many books to read as well now i'm on 'to kill a mockingbird' and once in awhile i'd go back to the office to have lunch with my colleagues and a few days a week i meet up with my girlfriends even though we have nowhere to go nothing to do and sometimes i'd do something a little different like baking cookies and taking many many pictures leave me alone for hours and i have no problem entertaining myself i'd keep myself so busy i no longer know what it feels like to be bored haha that basically sums up my days this one plus week and i'm happy like this.

ever since i was a little girl i've always envisioned my perfect life with me being really intelligent and beautiful and i'd have many many pretty clothes and bags and shoes my hair and skin would be glowy and baby soft my hair long i used to think that when i turned seventeen or eighteen somehow i would have a boyfriend who would be tall dark and handsome and with lots of money who would bring me to beautiful places and make me the happiest woman on earth and when i turn twentysix he would do a really romantic proposal and we'd get married and live happily ever after haha i was young and dumb then i always thought i'd meet my perfect man and he would be all that i ever wanted all i ever dreamt of and we'd spend forever and a day happy together for the rest of our lives. but we all know that that only happens in fairy-tales don't we? still a little part of me does continue to subscribe to that silly ridiculous belief of dreams come true now i'm happy just being so much in love with the Hervé Léger bandage dress~

♥ princessj*<35:03 pm

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