Tuesday, 13 March 2007
That Week Away 
you know i have always ever so stubbornly believed that so long as i work hard and fight my heart out for something, i would eventually get it. but then it hit me that that was a complete lie. i could ask and plead and persevere and hold on to something but i may still not be able to achieve that desired outcome. because that is what Life is. there are many things which i have absolutely no control over. i could do all i can and still fail to succeed. am i still to continue to stubbornly try? or do i sit back and wait and watch to see how things turn out whether for the better or for the worst? is there anything we can ever do? it always is easiest to hide and deny it all and live in the world of perfect pretence. if only.
yesterday was spent with my dearest at Sentosa and i enjoyed myself thoroughly because we had so much fun and i laughed so much the entire day haha! we had lunch at Marche in VivoCity and then we took the monorail to Sentosa. cycled the afternoon away and my arms were aching from stretching straight. she kept cycling and falling down and claims its because i keep doing kuku things to distract her but i really didn't do anything haha! the sunset and Musical Fountain were really beautiful! then was back to Vivo where we sat and star gazed and then walked around abit. actually many funny incidents happened but i suddenly can't recall them haha. and we took so many photos! i think we took more yesterday than we ever had in our fifteen years together! we should go out more often!
you know i was looking through the pictures of the BLG previous chalets as i was uploading the pictures of our latest chalet and i realized we have really changed alot! we looked so childish and ugly back then haha! first day was also the first day of work and we couldn't sleep in the night and when ben woke up we had to pretend we were fast asleep haha it was darn funny. and i kept touching her under the blanket and she didn't dare to move because she thought it was something else that was touching her haha freaking funny haha! i know how to play mahjong now! during the chalet, it was mahjong day and night and after watching them play a few rounds, i learnt how to play and shupin and laoda taught me how to win haha. we had BBQ the second night and there were so many funny incidents which i made laoda keep a secret, like the chicken wing which dropped into the charcoal and the spoons that all dropped to the floor haha! that day we all woke up early and went out for breakfast and then i went to town while they went to buy the BBQ stuff. then i came back to cry haha so kuku. fourth day, ahsan and i woke up early and went swimming and then it was cycling which was really fun yet tiring. then we came back and played all sorts of funny games haha. actually the whole chalet was quite fun even though i still think we didn't create enough memories and i realized i still love BLG despite it all.
8 March was the Graduation Ball and i wore fur haha! after the dinner, a huge group of us of around twenty plus headed to dblO for a night of clubbing and it was my first time clubbing and i really had fun haha! it was so fun dancing on the dance floor even though there were so many people that we were like all squashed together. this guy asked me to dance with him! and he's quite cute though quite short haha. as it was my first time, i didn't know what to do so i just ran away and moved closer to ahsan and the bitch haha! then someone from our group pushed jingwei behind me as a safety measure i think haha. i love lychee martini! and i think i drank a little too much that night because my voice suddenly became hoarse on the ride home and i was darn giddy and smelly and my mum was complaining haha you know actually my parents don't allow me to drink when i'm outside but who cares haha okey i'm darn hungry, time to look for food and put back the weight i think i lost while at the chalet haha bye! :)
♥ princessj*<38:30 pm